i don't want to talk to you anymore about anything ever again because you, just like EVERYBODY ELSE, just makes me feel like a total idiot

yeah, guys, that's pretty much slef-explanitory. im so sick and tired of being the butt of everyone's stupid jokes!!! just because i don't understand something or don't know the meaning of a word does NOT mean i'm fucking stupid!!! I'm typing this rather quickly because i have to go make cookies with my fuckinga-hole of a mother before i "lose my cool"again, and get all "dramatic"....i guess it's a little hard for you to catch onto what i'm talking about because you're always caught up in what my other siblings are doing??? let's see.... like: EVERYTHING having to do with Jen, making sure that my 24 year old brother makes it to work on time, cleans his room, and doesn't skip his college classes. and oh yeah! we can't forget carolyn!!! with her depression and stress!!*hinthintsarcasm* she goes to school 4 days a week, if that!, works at a grocery store part time and lives at home without having to pay rent or anything! *gasp!*
i'm not saying that i have the worst life ever... i don't !!! i'm honestly, very grateful for everything my aprents have done for me, but whenever i do talk to my mtoher about something that is bothering me, etc, which to be honest isn't very often, she makes it seem as if it's nothign and that i'm creating drama out of nothing and that when i do say something on a serious matter, such as religion, or her patronizing my competance, i'm completely wrong and that everything i do and say is for attention..
why thank you for showing so much concern, mom!!.... NAHT!!! but let's remember, i'm no marissa!!! well, i mean, atleast not yet!!! i haven't gotten pregnant on purpose yet just so my boyfriend could stay with me and then get an abortion to keep the attention on me!!! AND OH WAIT!!! let's not forget the wedding!!! i wasn't as bad with jen's wedding as marissa is with tammy's.... i'm not criticising the ring in front of both the bride &groom -to-be and i am managed to keep my bad thoughts about jen's dress to myself whereas marrissa told tammy right in front of her face that she thought her wedding dress was ugly.....

here's a HUGE hint for those who don't know me or aren't familiar with my typing style and attitude, 99% of the entire latter paragraph is completely saracasm... i would enver talk to someone that way, never mind think those things!!!! but hey, according to my mom i'm JUST LIKE marrissa, who DOES do those things. ugh, whatever. i'm so tired of this. and by the way, when i'm angry about one thing, i don't stay angry at the same person when i'm doing something else. i only stay angry at that person when talking about that one specific incident; i don't "transfer" my anger from one thing or person to the next..... i guess i'm not THAT MUCH OF A BITCH *sigh* are you keeping up with figuring out what's sarcasm and what's not?!?!?!?

You Fucking Suck!!!!!

yeah, so i could have sworn that my mother said that my sister's party was going to be on the 29th with my nana, rahter than the day of her birthday.... nope. as usual, im freaking wrong. i know she thinks im stupid and im 95% sure that she'd call me stupid more often if i didnt cry when she did. but when i tell her this, she turns on her lovely-dovey mother act on; what bullshit!!! just the way she acts when she's mad, i know she'd say it because she knows that it's the only thing she says that hurts my feelings. ugh. AND SHE'S SO CONTROLING!!!!
literally, i walked in the door, put my bag down, then i went in to say hi to everyone. then she told me that carolyn's aprty was tonight( even though i thought she told me it was going to be wednesday) and that i couldn't go to kevin's house. then i went out to my car to get my backpack because i forgot it there. As i was coming up the driveway she called out the window that i needed to say happy birthday to my sister; i said that was fine. i walked in the door, put my stuff in my room and put my hair up, as i was putting my hair up she called me downstairs. so when i went downstairs she had a bitch ft about how i need to not be so grumpy and grouchy and say happy birthday to my sister and give her a hug; CHILL THE FUCK OUT!!! seriously, calm down!!!! i had only been home five minutes and she's already freaking out!!!!! yeah, it's one thing that i fucked up on the date of my sister's party, but yelling at me because i hadn't said happy birthday to her in the five minutes that i had gotten home.... seriously??? ugh, i wish i was making this shit up!!! but nope!!! that shit's my life!!! im soo lucky!!! ***hinthintsarcasm***ugh. i can't wait to live at college and GET AWAY FROM HER!!!! not so much my father because he's more mellow and only freaks out when my mom freks out and is probably getting annoyed with her yelling an constant bitching... he's just soooo incompetent.... did i spell that correctly?? i think so... anyways, i asked my dad if i could have some friends come over on halloween and he said that was fine, but i'd ahve to check with my mom..... she had better not say no because a) i already kind of invited everyone, and b) she's working, so why the fuck should she care?? oh wait!! she's my mom, she "has to care"... no she doesn't, not anymore, anyways.... don'et get me wrong, i think she did a great job raising me and stuff, but seriously, LET GO!!! even just a little bit.... but i guess she can't because i'm so stupid that she always has to keep track of me!!!!! ugh!!!!
im trying so hard to let whatever she says roll off because i don't want to fight; as a matter of fact, i don't want anything to do with her!!! i could fight soooooo much more with her, but due to the fact that i can't stand her, i avoid arguements and giving my two centes because i don't want to be around her, and "everything i say, i do for attention!"... you know, i find that to be soooo insulting and hurtful... whenever she says that or ahs said that in the past, it's just sooo bovious that she doesn;t give a rat's ass as to what i have to say, and it's like she's assuming that i do everything for attention and can't think for myself. i'm so sick and tired of being shot down like that; i feel like i'm pretty mature and goal oriented, and i know that i think for myself, i don't depend on others and any one of my friends could say, if asked, that i don't look for attention and don;t give a rats ass as to what people think of me. i don't feel like i should prove this to her anymore than i think i've tried to prove it to her, already. i feel like i've made this sooo bovious already, that if she doesn't see it now, then she'll never see it and therefore there's no point in even trying.
i'm just trying to hold everything in untill i go to college and don't have to keep myself from falling apart, anymore.

I just need to get this off of my chest... nobody really needs to pay attention to this

okay, so i'm not really happy with the fact that a bunch of people are now talking to me because a) i don't know you... and b) you're just talking to me because i'm in a relationship. Honestly!!! who cares??? it's not like i don't care about my relationship, but it's not a big deal!!! i'm probably not going to fall "head over heels" in love, but i know this relationship will last at least 4 months or so because we get along that well... so whatever. i gotta go, class ended.

Dumb High School

why is it that when people are in high school, they always find some reason to create drama. it's pointless, it's stupid, and it's rude!! like, do you have some attention disorder where everyone's focus has to be on you?? get over yourself!! i don't understand how anyone could be so selfish as to creating up rumors or drama about someone just so other people will talk to you?!?!?
and what about creating obsurd generalizaations about a group of people, whether it's their sex, hair color, or ethnicity?? you're stupid & you probably don't know shit about them!!!! for example, brazilians aren't going to automatically shoot you when they see you just because you're white; they'll probably shoot you because you're a stupid bitch!!!!
and oh yeah, don't automatically assume that gay people come from satan! like the "bible says", everyone is made in god's image!!! so stop being a hypocrite!!! and aren't you a homosexual?? so SHUT UP!!! god!
and if you haven't noticed, i was being sarcastic for most of this blog. im not stupid, i just have bad sense of humor.

my own beowulf blog....

okay, so i wasn't able to find the ap lit blog so i'm just going to write about beowulf here so my attempts to do this assignment are noticed. anyways, i find it really interesting how they use so many god references, ie: "Thank god that grendel was conquered..." or something like that. but at the same time, i'm not really surprised that they use those references because religion was such a big thing. But yeah, i kind of find it funny how beowulf gets "stabbed" by grendel's mom and the blade just bends off of him and he fights and kills her underwater.... haha. not to state the obvious, but if beowulf really was real, then this story was exaggerated just a little bit... :)

A Bunch of *SIGHS*

*sigh*. i want to know , why is this so important? what i mean by important is, why does everyone tihnk/want to know if kevin and i are going out?? truthfully, we're not. as of right now. im not sure if he'll ask me to be his girlfriend... but i wouldn't say no. i mean, i'll be a little unsure because i don't want it to be a total flop. like, you know. freshman year was with blake because that was just a total joke.
i look foward to seeing him/talking to him at school because we do talk about a lot of things, and he is funny. and im pretty sure he flirts with me, i mean people who have "observed" us i.e: at the volleyball game, certainly do think so. im excited. kind of.
but at the same time i sort of try to "avoid" him, like i did with connor because i guess i'm afraid that if i do get too "close" with him then he will start to act like connor. you know, with all of the huggie/touchie things. and im not like that unless i'm completely confidant in the relationship & being with him. and just in general, i'm not the type of person who displays public signs of affection in public. unless the moment is extremely romantic and people aren't really around/watching us. i don't know why, i'm just not comfortable with it. and i don't know why but i don't like people calling him "heavy kevy". it's just not an attractive name. it's not like i'll make people stop calling him that, or whatever. it's just that i've heard better nicknames. like jagerstratter, halfnickel, romeo. and those are amazing nicknames because they are mine.
:)

another thing... *evenbiggersigh*. "mickey" and "minnie" are going through some issues, too and it just hurts me because i've never had a relationship with my brother before and just seeing them fight, it's horrible. they really do love and care about each other . but minnie has done some things that she's not completely proud of, but doesn't really take back. i mean, if you know the situation, it makes sense and it's completely understandable, but it's sad.
mickey wants to protect minnie but doesn't really know how to tell her and minnie wants to tell him so he doesn't get the wrong idea of her, because the things he's been told aren't really what they seem and she wants him to know and when she tried to tell him-- epic fail. *sigh*
mickey does care about her!!! he really does but he doesn't know how to talk to her & he comes across being mean and that he hates her, but he really doesn't!!!he said that he's trying to love her, but she makes it difficult. which i guess i can understand because not everyone gets along. but still.... *sigh*.
he's just trying to protect her and she knows that. and she, as much as she appreciates him trying to protect her, doesn't really want his protection and doesn't think that she needs it. but the truth is, she should take advantage of atleast some of his protection/advice because he just wants her to take it into consideration but she doesn't want to because she wants to be indpendant & who can blame her??? but at the same time, she really should just LISTEN to him (even if she doesn't follow it!!) because you never know when he's going to stop giving advice/ offering his help & protection. and, of course!, by then, she might want it and might need it.

you know what?? i told "mickey" this when we were alone yesterday, and i was completely honest!!! it was something like this, "I'm being 100% honest with you when i say this; i wish my brother cared for me even a little bit like you care for your sister."
I hope he really took that into consideration & hopefully he take that and realize that he should still keep on protecting her, or trying to protect her. I wish i told "minnie" that, and then maybe she'd atleast listen to what "mickey" is saying. It's not like she's completely ignoring him, but at the same time i got the impression that she's just openly refusing to listen to what he has to say!!!

i wish that they could work this out because it might cause some serious damage to their relationship.

fyi: if you hadn;t noticed this, the names have been changed to maintain/protect their privacy. i sort of wish that they'd read this so they could see both sides of their story.

PUT ON A SHIRT & GIMMIE MY MONEY, DAMMIT!!!!

okay, let me start off by saying that i am extremely pissed at my mtoher and sister carolyn because they are pretty much using me like an atm machine. my mom ( for suitable causes, i must admit) borrowed $300 dollars from me. and my sister, for her own personal reaosns, borrowed $100 from me. and funny thing, she wouldn't need $100 dollars from me if she wasn't lazy for no reason this summer and had gotten a second job which would ahve been the smart thing to do!!! but NOOOOOOOOO!! she didn't want to WORK more than she absolutely had to!!! lazy bitch. i know its bad that i don't like my sister carolyn all that much, but whatever. she's just all around annoying, but that's a different story.

anyways, here's my next subject for ranting.... KATIE HOGARTY PUT SOME CLOTHES ON THAT FIT YOU!!!! AND DONT HAVE ANY HOLES!!!! christ sake!!! you're no more a size 9 jean (even with all of the spandex/polyester in the world) than am i a size 3!!! COME ON!!! and never mind the whole holes right underneath the ass cheeks!!! even if you wear spandex or whatever underneath it, IT DOESNT COUNT!!!!! i know im a bitch saying this, but this is MY PRIVATE RANTING SPACE!! if you don't like it, i don't care!! a girl's gotta get her aggression out, somehow, right?? so why not here where no one else can get it?? people can only see it if they know your blog sight, but that's it!! no one else can get to it!!! ANYWAYS..... even if she wore clothes that fit her and were appropriate and not cheap looking ( im not saying that all walmart clothes look cheap, it's just the fit), then she'd look at least HALF decent. i know im not the prettiest girl in school and i don't have the best body, I KNOW IM FAT!! but atleast i dress appropriately according to my shape!! and just because i dress appropriately and according top my shape, does not mean that i can't look 'sexy' or whatever. *sigh*. and, oh yeah, BRUSH YOUR FIRGGIN TEETH, WASH YOUR HAIR EVERY NIGHT W/ SHAMPOO, PUT ON DEODERANT, AND DYE YOUR HAIR TO ONE GOOD COLOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and another thing, PULL UP YOUR PANTS!!!! letting your muffin top hang out in all of its cellulite glory is NOT SEXY!!!! again, buy some pants that fit you!!!...... CORRECTLY!!!! once again, YOU ARE NOT A SIZE 9!! EVEN WITH ALL OF THE SPANDEX AND POLYESTER IN THE WORLD; NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! admit it!!! i've grown to accept the fact that i'll never be a size 6 or whatever, you don't see me squeezing myself into a size 6 or 8 jean just because i WANT to be that size!!!! IT DOESNT WORK THAT WAY!!! get over it !!! gosh! for the love of our eyesight and sense of smell... CHANGE YOUR WAYS!!!

a major "fuck you"

okay. so im REALLY getting sick of my family, which, i guess, i snormal for someone my age. but im REALLY getting sick of them!! im basically mymom's bitchslave. and today i was telling my mom my list of colleges that i want to apply to and one of them was westfield. and if i do decide to go there, i'd have to live there. that's not settling too well with my father. he wants me to live at home because he wants to control everything that i am doing. he even said during a fight that we were having and i quote (verbatum!!), "...I control you!...". yeah, i don't think so!!!! I AM going to live at college if i want! THEY aren't paying for aNY of my college fees!!! we've already discussed this to some degree! they said, "We aren't going to support you financially while you're in college". does it get ANY more clear than that? if im paying for my college education, im going to go where i want if i can get the scholarships and get loans, etc. and i will stay there! just WAIT till im eighteen & get a tatto without him and without his consent or knowledge!!! that will be a giant FUCK YOU to him and it will only make me smile no matter HOW red in the face he gets!!!! but im only going to get the tatto if im sure that i want it.

trolls are not sexy!!!!!!!

okay, um, this guy is a really good friend of my brothers so he was one of my first friends on facebook because i know of him, but i haven't really spoken to him in person. (he requested me as a friend on facebook) apparently he is interested in me sexually because he has sent me numerous messages that are, you know, sexual. So he's like, "oh yeah, i'm totally into 3somes and i'm somanyinches longand we should get together.. etc" . Let me just say that this guys is UGLY!!! and he has the RAUNCHEIEST (spelling?) sense of humor you could EVER imagine !!!!! i want to throw up EVERY time i see him and even THINK of him, for that matter!!!! and he WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! it's not like i'm going to call the cops or anything, but EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no lie or ANYTHING!!! but, HE IS A TROLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can you say NAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the downside to the best class of the best year EVER!

okay, i just found out that a certain person *coughcough* is going to be in our ap lit class..... NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! it's not that i can't overall stand that person; it's just because that person thinks that we're totally naiove because we don't use words that people could potentially choke on. We're blunt, not stupid! And i swear if that person ever says, "At my old school.." or "well i took the MCAS.." i will be forced to say, "I was in public school for half of my education "career (?) and i took the Mcas pleanty of times to know what it's about!!!! so SHUT UP! you are NOT special and i couldn't give a rat's ass about what you think on most subjects even if YOU WERE ON YOUR DEATHBED!!!!!!! ugh!!!! *long&heavysigh*. now i'm sad ebcause she'll either be telling our teacher how to teach and what materials she should be teaching and she'll take up 90% of the class babbling on pretending trying not to be biast or a btich while stroking your hair obsessively and flirting with guys who are just looking for some ASS!!! Especially when they're already with someone you hoe!!!!! and i swear to god that if she cuts me off during discussion like she used to do during religion class then i will flip a switch and if she rolls her eyes at me one single time i swear that i will tell her off without any mercy!!! so i guess my overall message to this person is that YOU AREN'T BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE YOU STUPID CROTCH WROTCHED HOEBAG!!!

Why can't some people just take a hint???? >:(

Okay... Devereaux, Jess, and I were planning on getting some lunch after the final final exam at the Hudson Buffet. Now none fo us, Jess, Dev, and myself, wanted Allie there so we swore not to tell her or any one else. Now I don't know who, but someone told Allie, or she just found out because she's just that annoying. Because after school today (thursday) at homework club Allie confronted me about it and asked why she wasn't invited. I said, "I don't know, I wasn't in charge of inviting people". She's like, "Okay, well then I'll ahve to talk to Dev about that because I don't know she could have forgotten me". I was soooo tempted to say, "She didn't forget, she just didn't want to invite you because you're annoying as hell, you're rude, and we just don't want you there!!!!!" >:(

So tomorrow morning I'm going to talk to Dev and see if she wants me to tell Allie to bug off for ehr or not because quite frankly, she is really irritating me and needs to know that if you're not invited, then DON'T INVITE YOURSELF BECAUSE WE DON'T WANT YOU THERE!!!! I don't care if she doesn't like me any more because, quite frankly, I don't care! AT ALL! Don't get me wrong, I certainly don't hate/ not like her because she's really nice when she's not being rude/ snotty/ bitchy. She just needs to understand that she cannot under any circumstances invite herself any where anymoer! if she wants to go somewhere with other people, then she needs to ask politely and if she gets turned down, then she just needs to get over it because there's nothing she can do to change it!

I'm going to give this blog address to Dev and Jess. I think they'd get a kick out of it, and who knows? maybe they'll want to get a blog of their own! *hint hint*?

Ugh...

thOkay, I am so sick of her! *sigh* and this is never going to change because every time she over-analyzes and acts as if I'm the same as my three older siblings and that I do things for attention like my stupid cousin. This is why I don't talk to her. Okay. I've been stuck with m,y stupid family all week because my sister Jen and my neice are in town. FYI: I love them and like them. So anyways, my entire retarded family is sitting at the table playing a game of cards and my mtoher says that I have to ride my sister's horse two times a week because a: my sister can't and b: softball is over. I'm like "No, I don't want to. I want to be done with horseback riding for a bit, I've told you this" Which "I HAVE! And she's like "No, you're not.... You're just doing this because there's an audience". *angry/ frustrated sigh*. I'm so sick of ehr! She does not listen to me no matter what the subject is about, or what I say, ANYTHING! and I told her, "This is why I don't talk to you anymore about anything! " And then she shakes her head like I'm some stupid kid! I mean yes, Margaret, I am a dork, but you have to admit that I'm not really stupid. And now they're complaining because I'm supposedly 'talking to my friends'. LEAVE ME ALONE! I obviously don't want to talk to you! I'd rather be doing this than be in the same room as you! Now they're talking about me like I'm some evil person and I'm a bitch not talking to them or being the same room as them! Some tlaking about me or to me as if you know everything that I'm doing! Since I'm obviously not talking to you about my problems so I have to let steam/frustrations out somehow.... You know, I'm really tempted to give her my blog address so she can read this, but at the same time I don't want to let her in on my life... And it is, honestly, all her fault. She's analyzing my thoughts when it's not even true or respectful, she's being disrespectful to me regardless of whether she wants to believe /admit it or not!
*sighs angrily* She does not see me as an individual, she feels as though she knows everything about me when we all know that that's not true! This si why I don't share things with her/ talk to her other than when deemed necessary. otherwise, I'm just being a Bitch and I'm okay with that.

I am so sick of them!

Okay, it has been agreed upon in the past that when I'm angry I tell them that I want to be left alone and don't want to talk about whatever. So last night i went on a drive to clear my mind and when i came home my dad flipped out on me because he wanted to talk about something that i didn't want to, and i also said that i wanted to be left alone. hence the driving by myself. and he says he wants to talk about it anyways and that i need to sit down. i say i don't need to sit down and this goes back and forth for awhile until i get really pissed and start swearing. Long story short, they said this all could have been avoided if i had said i didn't want to talk about it in a respectful and calm manner. THIS IS WHAT I FUCKING DID EARLIER!!!!!! Now i am no longer talking to my parents other than when necessary. And i know that i will not regret this later nor will i EVER change my mind! They DO NOT LISTEN TO ME even when i say it in a 'respectful' manner and now whenever i say something to my mother she says, "what did you say?" and asks my dad if i said in it a "respectful or disrespectful manner". Fine. i don't need to talk to them about anything personal. It's them who wants to know what's going on in my life, i don't give a shit about what they think or what's going on in their lives. They just made it worse for themselves. I know i sound like a normal teenager and that this shit will just blow over and later on in life i'll love them and respect them and i'll no longer remember this in, oh, about a week? Nope. Being the ignorant and stubborn person that i am, i don't forget. And i mean it. Ugh. I am so over this. *sigh* And if they want to know what's going on in my life, then they can visit my blog. I'll give them the address. And if they want they can leave messages and i will read them. There. That's the perfect relationship! They read what i'm thinking and leave comments with their thoughts and feelings. *sigh* again.

I loathe how i sound like a stupid teenager. But HEY! I'm *different* from any other teenager because atleast i can recognize that i'm a stupid one! I don't care.

I think i should be a little hesitant to give my mother my blog address because this could lead to an unwanted and unnecessary confrontation that could only worsen our "situation". Oh well, what the hell? what do I have to lose form the "relationship" i have with my parents? It's already strained....

Hey Margerine...

I LOOOVE Fake Cheesey Deliciousness. what about you?

Yeah... that's pretty much it.

I think i'm going to go read your blog now... yeah. that's what i'll do.

Wow, it's been awhile ....

Okay. Miss Snyder, I'm REALLY glad that you found me ! I really want to see what colors look good on people and whatever... Oh yeah, it has been a little while since i've put makeup on another person so i might be a little rusty; but that's only with putting eyeliner on... everything else is good.
I've also talked to jennie about this very briefly, but i have a huge plan that will keep each persons makeup seperate and sanitary! i think you'll like it! OH! FYI: it involves shoe boxes (sans shoes, ofcourse!) and a huge bag of makeup sponges! Thank the Lord for Ocean State Job Lot! I'll write that up for you asap! Ps: i asked sarah for a copy of her schedule so i can ambush you and possibly avec Marianna, est-ce que c'estd'accord? Please let me know when it's okay so I am/ we are not bothering/ disturbing practice?! sweet deal!

hey brazilian... YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY 4 you! You got Juliet! And i am your
Romeo for life! WHOOT! and might i add that i am SUPER psyched for AP LIT enxt eyar! i already know that it is going to be my favorite class and precal is going to me my least favs for obvious reasons but that's okay because you'll be going through it with me (J'espere)!

PROM!

I'mokay, i'm sooo excited to see everyone in their dress and all made up (especially you, margerine because you r amazing @ life and made your dress!).
Anyways, yeah. people need to learn how to brush their teeth atleast two times a day, or even three times if you have bad teeth (dumb british people) and have bad breath 24/7. And they also need to learn how to wash their face and moisturize it on a daily basis so it doesn't look like their face is falling off... stupid karen. I would like to say how bipolar she is, but i don't think she's that bad... yet.
Moving on... yeah.
listening to dane cook's 'The friend nobody likes' , "I hope I'm not that person". Well yeah, you sort of are; but i think i'm kind of starting to not be annoyed with that person as much. i certainly don't hate that person... they are just kind of annoying, alot. especially since she has stinky breath and has a really annoying laugh. I enjoy being able to talk to that person on certain subjects. it's just that sometimes i sort of want to tell her to be quiet, not to be mean or anything, just being honest.
looking back & reading this, i feel like a bitch, somewhat. i really hope that she doesn't read this. i don't mean to be evil or anything, just venting. which is kind of the point of this whole blog thingy. And to talk shiitake about some people.
And now to be extremely random... I love Devereaux! she is sooo cute! I really enjoyed bringing her home on tuesday and getting the chance to talk to her about serious things and fun things. She is really mature and cute and funny and perky? Again, i don't want to seem creepy, but hey! i can't help it! And i'm sure that toher people think it, also.
I'm ranting on about things not only because it's fun, but because i'm trying to kill time before i go get my hair done. And i don't want to get there early because Devereaux will kill me even if i'm one minute early! Although i did tell her that she can not kill me if i'm there @ three o'clock and she is still there. That is kathy's fault, not mine. FYI: kathy is the hairdresser.
I guess i should probaby pack my bag with extra clothes for the all nighter, and i should put my contacts in and i need to straighten my hair so it is easier for kathy to do if it's nice and straight and smooth. and not full of knots and yucky and frizzy. eww.

My throat hurts.. alot.

I hate illnesses. I must admit that i do enjoy getting the same illness at the same time every year, it is quite annoying because I hate being sick during Prom season. Atleast this year I'm not like, vomiting 5 times a day 24/7 for , like, 5 days. And thankfully it's just an extremely sore throat. I should call the doctor back to see if I have strep or not... oops.
Anyways, I love my dog, WATTSON!
Moving on...
I don't like commercials that make all of these sexual references and then the commerical is about something competely different. For example, I saw this commercial not five minutes ago; " Size does matter.... It makes a huge difference.." And then the commercial is about home work-out machine thingys that are easier to store and take up less space. Wow. At first I was like, 'This should not be on television' Five seconds later 'Holy Shiitake mushrooms, this commecial is totally cheesy'.
Now to be completely random... I love Miss Snyder! She has a blog! I'm going to look her up on Google and write a comment on her blog thingy. Wow, I'm not creepy....

Okay, now that biznatch REALLY pissed me off...

okay, jamie something-or-other. i'm not sure if you know her, but she was on my somewhat-likeable list until i got back friggin emails from her about some stupid volunteer thing! I have explained to her on multiple occassions that i can not attend most of the 4h meetings she hosts because i'm freaking busy out of my god damned mind! i explain why i cannot go to a meeting because i either have softball, i have to work at my aunt''s barn (which is happening a hell of a lot more than usual..), i have school work, quarterlies, stupid esci projects, midterms, homework, going to work out at the gym, or i'm just about ready to kill myself from stress ! *sigh*. anyways, i volunteered to work a shift at some horseshow because she asked me if i wanted to, i said sure if she didn't mind giving me service hours for it. then she freaking emails me back saying sure, as long as i attend the next three meetings which wouldn't be so bad if i DIDN'T HAVE SOFTBALL GAMES IN FREAKING WORCESTER OR AT NASHOBA OR AT BLASCKSTONE ON THAT DAY AND I WOULDN'T B BACK TILL 8:00! yeah, it happens. so i don't know what the hell to f*ing do; either blow off my softball coach even MORE (even though before io've had legitimate excuses with notes from doctors, etc & i just don't want to skip softbal again!), or blow off my riding director that i will have to deal with all summer and go to meetings with ten year olds! HELP ME! I KNOW i'll get shit from her all summer! Oh yeah, the one other 18 or 17 year old girl that goes there and is very likeable does not have the schedule i ahve because a) she does not have an all year round job, just summer, b) eyah, she does participate in one sport in the fall c) she does not have as much homework as she has ebcause she's stupid and d) she wouldn't do it anyways because she's stupid. oh yeah, jamie doesn't wnat to seem 'harsh' but, it's "only fair that i attend the meetings just like veryone else..." SHUT UP BITCH!!!!! okay. i feel better now, but that still, unfortunately, does not solve my problem....

Okay, now that biznatch

OH MY GOD DO I HATE COMPUTERS!

okay, i had a perfectly good yet pointless blog that i was about to publish. but when i hit "publish" it didn't get published? WHAT THE HELL!!! oh well. i'm too lazy to rewrite my pointless blog. i got it all out and i feel somewhat better. *sigh*

don't mind me, i'm just venting...

okay. i am soooo sick of katie. she thinks that she knows exactly what is going on at all times & that she is absolutely right about everything!!!! Well Katie, NOOOOO!!!! YOU ARE WRONG! for example, it is NORMAL to be seventy degrees in mid-april! Who the hell are you to say that is it 'always fourty-fifty degrees' in mid-april? like you would know because you are a. not a meteorologist, or b. you do not spend enough time outside to even know what it's like outside!!! also, stop creating asboslutely stupid and unneccessary drama in e.sci class! who gives a care where you sit! NO ONE ! so why argue like there's no tomorrow over a stupid seat! and since when do you like allie? i mean, yeah, i vertainly don't hate ther, but last time i checked, you did.
And another thing i would like to rant about softball(sry margaret and sarah, u don't have to read this if u don't want 2...). Anyways, i hate stupid seventh and eighth graders who think they know everything just because they play on fifty softball teams at once! And mnost of all, i hate it when they try and tell me what to do! NO! NOT ALLOWED! 1) because i know what i'm doing and 2) I'M THE FRIGGIN' CAPTAIN! SO PISS OFF!!!And Kyra, who the hell are you to join JV softball in the middle of the frigging season, expect to get the position you want even though it's already being played by two people, and you haven't played in over a year, and you suck, and you're stupid?!? So NO you CAN NOT and WILL NOT get the position you want, even if you're lucky enough to play, NEVER MIND EVEN GETTING CAPTAIN BECAUSE I AM ALREADY THE FRIGGING CAPTAIN! AND DON'T EVEN TRY BRINGING UP THE FACT THAT YOU'RE A DAMN SENIOR EBCAUSE NOBODY CARES AND EVERYBODY HATES YOU! wow! i feel a lot better now. well, for now, anyways....

Major quotage going on... PLAGERISM!! : 0

I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure.
Clarence Darrow.. okay, margaret: whenevr i read this i think of you w/ a cup of coffee sitting @ the table reading the obituraries and laughing ( which is y this quote is perfect for u!) :)

True friends stab you in the front.
Oscar Wilde.... Oooh yeah... 'cause i'm sure a true friend wants to see u die... wow that's creepy.. i sort of scared myself there for a second.. anyways, moving on..

I'm not offended by all the dumb blonde jokes because I know I'm not dumb... and I also know that I'm not blonde.
Dolly Parton.. i can totally picture kelly saying this.. should i tell her about this? i dunno...

I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass. Maya Angelou
... U and me, Margaret... let's go out into the world and kick some ass! sounds like fun! I don't know about u, but i bet i'll have a list of asses i want to kick by the time we graduate high school ;)

Stressed-much?

OH MY GOSH do I HATE the internent! i had to re-create my password & everything, i even had to create this blog just to post the directions 2 my house 4 margaret . oh well. atleast i'll be abel to blow off some steam here, hopefully... here you go margaret...
Okay.. here are the right directions to my house. 1) take a left out of the hch parking lot and go striaght through the lights next to the tanning place and go past the graveyasrd. 2) when you get to the second set of lights take a right and take another right at the stop sign. 3) As you are going straight down the road, take a left onto Old North Road. When you get to the end of the street, take a left onto Causeway. You'll be going straight on that road for a little while. When you get to the stop sign, take a right onto Hosmer st. It is a really long street. You will be going by a bunch of houses, Jaworek school on your right, & then a bunch of more houses.
4)When you see the set of lights, stay in the right lane and take a right. Then IMMEDIATELY get into the farthest left lane and take a left onto Curtis Ave.5) when you get onto Curtis Ave, go up the hill and take another left onto hildreth street. 6) at the end of hildreth street, you'll see a stop sign & take a right at that stop sign. You'll be turning onto Cook lane. 7) Once onto Cook lane, take your SECOND LEFT!! this will lead you onto Sherwood. 8) once on Sherwood, take your second right onto Roundtop road and follow down the road untill you get to the house # 158. 9) Once you see that house continue up the hill and turn around in the cul-de-sac and turn around and psrk in front of my house (Because you'll probably ruin the underneath of your car if you try to get up my awkward-rainbow shaped driveway --I know i've done it :)igh*. ohwell.