Ugh...

thOkay, I am so sick of her! *sigh* and this is never going to change because every time she over-analyzes and acts as if I'm the same as my three older siblings and that I do things for attention like my stupid cousin. This is why I don't talk to her. Okay. I've been stuck with m,y stupid family all week because my sister Jen and my neice are in town. FYI: I love them and like them. So anyways, my entire retarded family is sitting at the table playing a game of cards and my mtoher says that I have to ride my sister's horse two times a week because a: my sister can't and b: softball is over. I'm like "No, I don't want to. I want to be done with horseback riding for a bit, I've told you this" Which "I HAVE! And she's like "No, you're not.... You're just doing this because there's an audience". *angry/ frustrated sigh*. I'm so sick of ehr! She does not listen to me no matter what the subject is about, or what I say, ANYTHING! and I told her, "This is why I don't talk to you anymore about anything! " And then she shakes her head like I'm some stupid kid! I mean yes, Margaret, I am a dork, but you have to admit that I'm not really stupid. And now they're complaining because I'm supposedly 'talking to my friends'. LEAVE ME ALONE! I obviously don't want to talk to you! I'd rather be doing this than be in the same room as you! Now they're talking about me like I'm some evil person and I'm a bitch not talking to them or being the same room as them! Some tlaking about me or to me as if you know everything that I'm doing! Since I'm obviously not talking to you about my problems so I have to let steam/frustrations out somehow.... You know, I'm really tempted to give her my blog address so she can read this, but at the same time I don't want to let her in on my life... And it is, honestly, all her fault. She's analyzing my thoughts when it's not even true or respectful, she's being disrespectful to me regardless of whether she wants to believe /admit it or not!
*sighs angrily* She does not see me as an individual, she feels as though she knows everything about me when we all know that that's not true! This si why I don't share things with her/ talk to her other than when deemed necessary. otherwise, I'm just being a Bitch and I'm okay with that.

I am so sick of them!

Okay, it has been agreed upon in the past that when I'm angry I tell them that I want to be left alone and don't want to talk about whatever. So last night i went on a drive to clear my mind and when i came home my dad flipped out on me because he wanted to talk about something that i didn't want to, and i also said that i wanted to be left alone. hence the driving by myself. and he says he wants to talk about it anyways and that i need to sit down. i say i don't need to sit down and this goes back and forth for awhile until i get really pissed and start swearing. Long story short, they said this all could have been avoided if i had said i didn't want to talk about it in a respectful and calm manner. THIS IS WHAT I FUCKING DID EARLIER!!!!!! Now i am no longer talking to my parents other than when necessary. And i know that i will not regret this later nor will i EVER change my mind! They DO NOT LISTEN TO ME even when i say it in a 'respectful' manner and now whenever i say something to my mother she says, "what did you say?" and asks my dad if i said in it a "respectful or disrespectful manner". Fine. i don't need to talk to them about anything personal. It's them who wants to know what's going on in my life, i don't give a shit about what they think or what's going on in their lives. They just made it worse for themselves. I know i sound like a normal teenager and that this shit will just blow over and later on in life i'll love them and respect them and i'll no longer remember this in, oh, about a week? Nope. Being the ignorant and stubborn person that i am, i don't forget. And i mean it. Ugh. I am so over this. *sigh* And if they want to know what's going on in my life, then they can visit my blog. I'll give them the address. And if they want they can leave messages and i will read them. There. That's the perfect relationship! They read what i'm thinking and leave comments with their thoughts and feelings. *sigh* again.

I loathe how i sound like a stupid teenager. But HEY! I'm *different* from any other teenager because atleast i can recognize that i'm a stupid one! I don't care.

I think i should be a little hesitant to give my mother my blog address because this could lead to an unwanted and unnecessary confrontation that could only worsen our "situation". Oh well, what the hell? what do I have to lose form the "relationship" i have with my parents? It's already strained....

Hey Margerine...

I LOOOVE Fake Cheesey Deliciousness. what about you?

Yeah... that's pretty much it.

I think i'm going to go read your blog now... yeah. that's what i'll do.

Wow, it's been awhile ....

Okay. Miss Snyder, I'm REALLY glad that you found me ! I really want to see what colors look good on people and whatever... Oh yeah, it has been a little while since i've put makeup on another person so i might be a little rusty; but that's only with putting eyeliner on... everything else is good.
I've also talked to jennie about this very briefly, but i have a huge plan that will keep each persons makeup seperate and sanitary! i think you'll like it! OH! FYI: it involves shoe boxes (sans shoes, ofcourse!) and a huge bag of makeup sponges! Thank the Lord for Ocean State Job Lot! I'll write that up for you asap! Ps: i asked sarah for a copy of her schedule so i can ambush you and possibly avec Marianna, est-ce que c'estd'accord? Please let me know when it's okay so I am/ we are not bothering/ disturbing practice?! sweet deal!

hey brazilian... YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY 4 you! You got Juliet! And i am your
Romeo for life! WHOOT! and might i add that i am SUPER psyched for AP LIT enxt eyar! i already know that it is going to be my favorite class and precal is going to me my least favs for obvious reasons but that's okay because you'll be going through it with me (J'espere)!

PROM!

I'mokay, i'm sooo excited to see everyone in their dress and all made up (especially you, margerine because you r amazing @ life and made your dress!).
Anyways, yeah. people need to learn how to brush their teeth atleast two times a day, or even three times if you have bad teeth (dumb british people) and have bad breath 24/7. And they also need to learn how to wash their face and moisturize it on a daily basis so it doesn't look like their face is falling off... stupid karen. I would like to say how bipolar she is, but i don't think she's that bad... yet.
Moving on... yeah.
listening to dane cook's 'The friend nobody likes' , "I hope I'm not that person". Well yeah, you sort of are; but i think i'm kind of starting to not be annoyed with that person as much. i certainly don't hate that person... they are just kind of annoying, alot. especially since she has stinky breath and has a really annoying laugh. I enjoy being able to talk to that person on certain subjects. it's just that sometimes i sort of want to tell her to be quiet, not to be mean or anything, just being honest.
looking back & reading this, i feel like a bitch, somewhat. i really hope that she doesn't read this. i don't mean to be evil or anything, just venting. which is kind of the point of this whole blog thingy. And to talk shiitake about some people.
And now to be extremely random... I love Devereaux! she is sooo cute! I really enjoyed bringing her home on tuesday and getting the chance to talk to her about serious things and fun things. She is really mature and cute and funny and perky? Again, i don't want to seem creepy, but hey! i can't help it! And i'm sure that toher people think it, also.
I'm ranting on about things not only because it's fun, but because i'm trying to kill time before i go get my hair done. And i don't want to get there early because Devereaux will kill me even if i'm one minute early! Although i did tell her that she can not kill me if i'm there @ three o'clock and she is still there. That is kathy's fault, not mine. FYI: kathy is the hairdresser.
I guess i should probaby pack my bag with extra clothes for the all nighter, and i should put my contacts in and i need to straighten my hair so it is easier for kathy to do if it's nice and straight and smooth. and not full of knots and yucky and frizzy. eww.

My throat hurts.. alot.

I hate illnesses. I must admit that i do enjoy getting the same illness at the same time every year, it is quite annoying because I hate being sick during Prom season. Atleast this year I'm not like, vomiting 5 times a day 24/7 for , like, 5 days. And thankfully it's just an extremely sore throat. I should call the doctor back to see if I have strep or not... oops.
Anyways, I love my dog, WATTSON!
Moving on...
I don't like commercials that make all of these sexual references and then the commerical is about something competely different. For example, I saw this commercial not five minutes ago; " Size does matter.... It makes a huge difference.." And then the commercial is about home work-out machine thingys that are easier to store and take up less space. Wow. At first I was like, 'This should not be on television' Five seconds later 'Holy Shiitake mushrooms, this commecial is totally cheesy'.
Now to be completely random... I love Miss Snyder! She has a blog! I'm going to look her up on Google and write a comment on her blog thingy. Wow, I'm not creepy....

Okay, now that biznatch REALLY pissed me off...

okay, jamie something-or-other. i'm not sure if you know her, but she was on my somewhat-likeable list until i got back friggin emails from her about some stupid volunteer thing! I have explained to her on multiple occassions that i can not attend most of the 4h meetings she hosts because i'm freaking busy out of my god damned mind! i explain why i cannot go to a meeting because i either have softball, i have to work at my aunt''s barn (which is happening a hell of a lot more than usual..), i have school work, quarterlies, stupid esci projects, midterms, homework, going to work out at the gym, or i'm just about ready to kill myself from stress ! *sigh*. anyways, i volunteered to work a shift at some horseshow because she asked me if i wanted to, i said sure if she didn't mind giving me service hours for it. then she freaking emails me back saying sure, as long as i attend the next three meetings which wouldn't be so bad if i DIDN'T HAVE SOFTBALL GAMES IN FREAKING WORCESTER OR AT NASHOBA OR AT BLASCKSTONE ON THAT DAY AND I WOULDN'T B BACK TILL 8:00! yeah, it happens. so i don't know what the hell to f*ing do; either blow off my softball coach even MORE (even though before io've had legitimate excuses with notes from doctors, etc & i just don't want to skip softbal again!), or blow off my riding director that i will have to deal with all summer and go to meetings with ten year olds! HELP ME! I KNOW i'll get shit from her all summer! Oh yeah, the one other 18 or 17 year old girl that goes there and is very likeable does not have the schedule i ahve because a) she does not have an all year round job, just summer, b) eyah, she does participate in one sport in the fall c) she does not have as much homework as she has ebcause she's stupid and d) she wouldn't do it anyways because she's stupid. oh yeah, jamie doesn't wnat to seem 'harsh' but, it's "only fair that i attend the meetings just like veryone else..." SHUT UP BITCH!!!!! okay. i feel better now, but that still, unfortunately, does not solve my problem....

Okay, now that biznatch